fiSHIhU1~

2005-01-25T14:13:00.000+08:00

feel so weak n vulnerable to break downs now....anytime... run out of ways to cheer up...

2005-01-25T14:02:00.000+08:00

all humans r selfish...is tt a universal truth? under that considerate n thoughtful facade is another you...
nowadays i'm like under alot of stress....n after i hav finally recharged myself things will oways hav to go bad....hearing all the grumbles and complain in this environment...maybe i'm somehow influenced too...

2005-01-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

the CME teacher call us to find the wad wad tsunami singapore de wad wad defence thingy..so sian de...i wanna learn how to make cake~~ den can save more bucks...can make myself oso...i shall make my own pencil box....gotta buy sum buttons n cloth frm spotlight...made my own shoes last sundae..vv nice lei=) use chain n buttons do de...sumore whole world onli got one neh! hohoho...coverse sell $60 plus wor...shihui continues to sing of her own achievemnet...

2005-01-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

ANGELA IS A PIPI! I LOST MY ERASER =( IN SCH NOW..YAY SHIHUI a FOR CHINESE! todae's a nice dae...i got my $8 frm shanrui le! hohoho... and all's well...shi hui is happy and contented...looking forward to sat..hmmm....where do u is tt eraser.........

2004-12-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

sucks...deleted the draft blog...figured tt it wont do no good if i had posted it...ok this just sucks..i hav reasons but i duno how to tell u without affecting any of us..so maybe i shld juz let it be...maybe its all fated..oh freak..kan imagine how i'm even gonna tok to u..things r oways so weak between us...anything can make tis collapse..i can never understand or agree wif sum things u do...juz lyk how u feel towards mi..

2004-12-20T01:40:00.000+08:00

tried to do sum of my work but failed...haizended my gg out to cartel..chatting wif sky..he shld realli tell jiahui lor..haiz..it takes yuan fen for 2 persons to meet lor..its not n never easy to find the right n suitable one..so since he found her..he shld realli cherish tis opportunity n tell her..wad a waste..dont wait until tt special one is gone den u regret..
realli hate projects lor..nvm i will do it...
sumtimes i feel tt my world is lyk so pure so simpl...even when i look into my parents' life.. in contrast to sum of my frenz...maybe ttz y i carn connect to them ba..but i'm glad my world's like tt..though i knoe it's nt permanent

2004-12-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

camp was great...though onli went fer 2 daes =( and mudita won! 2 times le leh...haha...dono how dey won oso...somehow dey accumulated alot of points.got to noe alot of new frenz too..
then went bangkok..their traffic reali cannot make it lor..stuck on the road for like half an hr..we went chuk tu chak ..mah boon krong..lumpini..on the first dae my sis's wallet was stolen..so she basically lost all her money..her fren's $70..her IC n ez link lor..so we go tourist police to make report..but sadly nobodi noes the correct directions..so we went to three places which ppl directed..(all wrong)..den finally went dere lor..by tt time everybodi sian diao liao..oh well den we juz cont shopping n eating lor..bought like 6 t shirts..1 skirt..1 bag..1 slipper..2 earrings and sum stuff for my fwens like wad elephant (toy) candles.. gums..bookmarks..photo frame n lawrence's wallet..
yest went clor's hse to cook...den i yue cook yue hyper..until the end when we gt up the car i was like laming like monekys..like wad banana leaf restaurant sells banana leaves..poor tingting frozen beside mi..hohoho..at the session gt to know 2 new frenz..onli rem jane(lane) haha..n tt 14 tt ger..stupid sky came n went without even telling mi la..ma fun todea still muz specially meet to giv him his t shirt...so ltr i go collect my spects...den do homework =) my puzzle seems forgotten..haha..

2004-12-09T10:29:00.000+08:00

yay! tmr gg camp le..n0w i finally wont feel sian for rest of 1.5 weeks haha..with my cute lil' puzzle to do and the threatening deadline of homework to meet..just bought the puzzle yesterdae wif F2, loolooo cass n sherilyn. we went fer lunch den go walk walk at pasar malam haha..the food so tempting..den the puzzle so cheap.. 3 for $10 so looloo n mi combine wif a "xiao mei mei"(laughs)hu bought sakura cartooon de...den we both bought precious thots de "i belief in miracles" haha..1000 pieces de.. so far i've onlicategorised the puzzle into A-X..think muz go buy the frame..wonder dey all do until where liao..bet looloo is stil stuck o_0 haha no la joking later u punch mi again..todae papa buying camera yay den i can pai my completed puzzle down!! looloo ar my arm dere still vv pain lor...u owe mi..i poke u onli can.. =( na li hui so strong make until i swell..mummy!

2004-12-07T13:19:00.000+08:00

later gg to victor's office..again..the thought of going there just to take $20(half of wad i suppose to get) just makes mi sick..
dreamt abt a vv sweet dream last night woke up to see the huge contrast between dreams n reality..hohoho..a simple family..a simple fren...a simple love..a simple life..haha my dream so nice rite..really appreciate my blog..it's really nice..haha...k la i'm starting to crap..i'll think of more to write den write.. =)

2004-12-03T19:19:00.000+08:00

the music in my blog like abit sad lei...don't noe wad to do...vv confused (friendship) yea ppl involved shld noe... realli hate to tok abt such sensitive stuff..its super complicated and its hard to explain to them too..It's nt abt those trival matters..its like i wanna catch hold of my thoghts n emotions n like 定下来..hav more self discipline..make more sense in wadeva i do..dowana go to those extremes in emotions..dowanna 疯 arnd animore..its nt abt the company its abt the choice of stuff i wanna do..i do still lame arnd but wad i mean here is things tt dey wld do n i wld nt..like go stand in the rain kinda stuff...to them it is fun..perharps filled with memories..but it's rather insensible (being honest) for mi lor..as in i dun wanna get sick..get Mc stay home..make parents worried so on..
maybe i'm "shu3 qi4" ba..but taht's my choice i don wanna follow blindly...do wad dey do..

2004-12-02T17:51:00.000+08:00

staying at home is really vv borring...tues went out wif sin...though she was super late we had a great day..esp durring the trip back home, we were lyk chatting lyk how we did in the past..we oso 2 shirts...1 each...coz buy 2 gt offer mah..at sam & kel..as usual..hohoho~

a lil' bit of prob gg on between me n my frenz..it's not a quarrel it's not a fight, perharps that's wad that makes it hard to be resolved..but sumhow I've learn to take such things lightly..do what i am suppose to do and accept whatever that comes..

chatted wif "him" juz now..and it seems like i've really gotten over him..coz we were completely laughing arnd n chatting as if we're juz friends.. =)

the camp is cuming in 8 daes time! can't wait to see mabel,sky n so on..haiz..mel n shawn n veron nt cuming i guess.. But i'm sure it's gonna b fun wif shixiong as da' camp master..haha..too bad i won't b dere for da' night walk..thailand trip is in 9 daes time..vv excited..haha..

Last but not least.. thank you mabel for helping mi wif my blog!!! haha...yea it's pretty pretty now.. =) thank you

2004-11-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

yeyaeayeayesh! work finish le...gt pay le...tis boss much better he giv cash nt like tt stupid victor hu refuse to pay..o ya until now i still haven gotten my $40.. hope they still hav other shows den intro lobang to mi den can work again ... its actually good money lei..$60/dae juz stand dere n promote.. singtel can earn $100 plus..but dere was tis poor acer guy he came looking for cdrs..haha look here look dere oso she bu de buy...coz he onli earn 40/dae den tt thing cost 36.. so i gave him extra free gift haha.. dey sae sell printer n laptop can earn alot...haiz...but sitec over le...
bought portugese egg tarts for my family after i gt my pay..hahahasense of satisfaction now can go shopping le.. =)

2004-11-27T09:50:00.000+08:00

yoZ last 2 daes bz working at expo...sell cdr..dvd..den gt free gift de actually quite a gd buy la..but sum ppl vv choosy leh..see here see dere den dowanna buy..o well actually oso nt my prob haha coz nt based on comission mah...but muz stand super long...from 11-9 10hrs lor...gt free lunch though..later still muz go work haiz dee abit sian..nobody to tok to except pinky...den Ric nt cuming these few daes..so i'm basically alone la... =( kk the lonely ger has togo to work now...buaiZ da jia!

2004-11-24T16:09:00.000+08:00

yoYoyo! i'm sho sian....S-I-A-N...da dae b4 yest rite...i ate a cup of ice cream.. to b precise its a million years old ice cream k..den of course i gt diarrhoea da next dae... "xie" le 3 times..all da disguating brownish water cum out hahaha...den i still go eunos return the wad muhadiyamah home money..was raining..quite cold...den went jurong pt for a movie n dinner wif yijia chunya n likang..we watched shutter in tis whole process i was lyk shivering..it was super cold k..den i slept for a while..den saw the ending haha..tt actor (tunn) was lyk carrying a female ghost..his ex..poor thing..tt explains y he bcum super heavy (120kg) n y he gt neck strains...the storyline quite nice la...oso gt sum guarantee-scary parts...den we go eat crystal jade...but i was lyk tasteless probly coz i was sick ba...den my fwen help mi go buy paracetamol...den gt better...hohoho..den slept here n dere in tt 1-hr plus journey home frm boonlay..
skipped training cos tis mrning still feeling a lil' feverish..haiz...feverish still nvm...no appetite is the worse..eat anithing oso tasteless..drink plain water lyk drink medicine liddat...H..e..L..P!!

2004-11-21T01:41:00.000+08:00

thanks shawn..but if u hav time ritw pls shun bian helpmi add sum music can...n the toolbar dere pls add sum meaningful words..hohoho..thanks =)

down to business nowadays life lyk nt bad lei..haha..actually oso nt much enjoyment la..but its juz nice nt too bz nt too slack..went k box de other dae...haiz...i kan sing! =( mebbie my voice too soft ba...sobx.. anw de dae after i think..was the competition..i was sadly "placed" in the other team which lost.budden actually oso nt sad la..quite happi n satisfied coz i lyk tt st nick's comp hohoho..felt that i tried my bez and did wad i wanted to do =) though the ngee ann one was bad..well anw since my name was oso in another team..mi n xiao hua gt the medal..it felt awkward..didn;t feel good coz we both noe that it's not rightfully ours...just wished that i was in the other team n won it back myself..yest i brought my grannie to CGH to checkup..can c tt she felt vv happi to c mi bring her dere..hoho..she kept saeing "jin guai arh"...haha...todae was quite a bz dae..missed my liu xing hua yuan for the third time..=( watch half an hr den go out to mit mummie for lunch which was nice.. den went to sbm todae de sharing session super chim..but still can understand most la..=\ den went buy supper for jie huz sick..poor thing
now just wish n pray hard tt the stupid victor will pay us our wages..tt was hard earned money lor..haiz $40 to him vv lil' maybe..but i nid it mah...
kk tt was a looong blog...haha...=) *beams wif satisfaction

2004-11-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

yay.. changed the skin 4 u..
nice ritez?
hahaz.. m i pro or wad.. muahahahahz..
if u wann the old 1 back juz tell mi i'll send it to u
yep yep

Shawn

2004-11-18T01:42:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! dis is shawn guestblogging on ur blog!!
hahaz.. my dis nu er likes to CRY!!!
n scince she's to lazy to update.. i'll do it 4 her..
wee~ act nth to sae la.. ani1 got nice blogskins to recommend?
cya arnd! n take care!!

2004-10-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

yea i'm back !! tis morning gt lit n geog...geog mcq i die le...vv hard...but overall hai hao la....
haiz...no more $$ le...how to enjoy post exam ne?...i wanna go shopping lei...realli...manz...the burning desire..haha..so soffucated by books notes worksheets....tt explains y i vv long neva cum here...yea haha..but c the tagboard u all so nice so i decided to write haha...
juz now had a mtahs tuit...spose to hav bio wif geraldine..den too tired so go home..wahhaa a maths is gg on well...yea! hope to get a A....jia you!!!..
yea da jia yao jia you k~ ... u can when u believe!! ~.~

2004-09-10T21:13:00.000+08:00

i dunno y...but i feel lyk crying...thought i've got over the defeat...thought it was ok..thought i've tried my best...den y r dere tears in my eyes...I'm sorry... 11-1 i'll rem...i owe u one..a victory...which oways seems so far whenever i step over tt fence..it's so hard.........

2004-09-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

hanging on well now..as in i'm nt slacking too much nor stessing too much..vv gt satisfaction..juz now tidies up my room..now look more spacious..n neat..wahaha...*shihui zhen guai*
actually hor 2dae muz go make I.C de...last dae liao..but i realised it too late..too late to even call to change appointment time..so i shall go tmr...reach at 8am..which by den theySHOULD b opened..coz if dey arent...i'm.....doomed?..yea i'm doomed..haha coz gt competition at victoria sec...den muz meet em at 9.30...vv scared lei..do alone sumore..scarely i lost how? but anw i play the 4th chang la..so actually shld b ok de..yea* trying hard to convince myself*
think tmr shld b able to win neh~~ as in supposedly...haiz...hope nuting goes wrong k..later arh!!! k lacx lacx..dun tink go much..*trys again to convince myself its gonna b fine*
k la i shall end...i wan study de lei..but aiya alot of distractions how??!

2004-09-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

ended my compo wif "perfect" vv sad story neh....and actually its true haha..one of my fwen used to suffer liddat..budden now better le..actually shld hav used T.A.t.U de all the things she said..haha...lyk vv gt impact lei...but its stupid la..imagine mi writiting " all the things she said" like 3 times...the teacher wld probably mark mi as -no link- now vv sian..juz now mommy sae i gt fever dont let mi go sch..now too late to go training oso..haiz...den muz stay home..nutting to do..!!

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

2004-09-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

dun tink u'll read tis but anw YOU're the star shining brightly in my sky...have no doubts..it is you..

2004-09-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

Houzi go liao...haiz...so many ppl go song him. those sec 4s sing for him..vv touching..good teachers oways leave fast..all thanks to MOE..dey do petition le still no use..wei shen me..haiz..mr chia leaving nxt yr..another great teacher gone..
todae compo nt bad..was able to brainstorm and apply...hopefully it turns out well..
havent realli accepted the fact tt hou is gone..as in he migrate back la..a taecher hu can sing in class...hu truly cares abt his students..hu can stay back after sch for one to one teaching..hu smiles like the sun...he is one in a million..he's probably on board now..maybe eating our cake ba..take care houzi~~

2004-08-31T17:09:00.000+08:00

think 4 daes past after my b dae liao neh..haha...thnaks to likang for tt treat..haha..i eat the wasabi until i cry..sumore still go oder cold tofu...neva order tt k...waste of $$..its tasteless..soft shell crab vv nice..yea..the bez thing is nt having to worry abt the bill when eating haha..passed chem test...neva realli expected As or Bs la..but i did aim for em...its ok...lalala

2004-08-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

super tired now...
todae's my b dae hahaa...
took like 3 mins onli to flag down a taxi tis mornining..when i normally take 15 min la...haha vv lucky neh..
went sch den xuan gave mi a cushion like seat...piglet de...vv cute haha..but price tag still on..haha..19.90..its him n shawn share de...den dey all wondering y i cum so early haha..30 mins b4my normal arrival time..haha..
den the morning started wif ppl daoing mi..haha...toopid la..purposely de lor..
den xin chyr fainally gave mi my pressie-jolin cd haha..sahred wif cass n grace..den lala gave mi a nice box wif a frenship bracelet inside..wahaha.. findin cake now...sian diao no cake abit sad lei..haha...25 more mins left...how?
anw bearbear oso gt giv a piglet cup haha...vv cute neh...wrapper oso vv nice..haha..den zh gave a mashi maro de pouch...plus 3 sweets..a bkmark n a letter...like the bkmark da most haha...
den we went swensens'...gt a free happy birthdae firehose..haha...yay!!...den tt lady light the candle...den dey sing b dae song..it was touching la....dey sang once oso in class..thanks..
den rush back to training...it was a vv fun journey on the way...took pics n videos..
den training...trained wif cass...its lyk i get to train wif a sec 3 vv seldom you mei you..i was sho happi.. den trained well..haha..den coach sae abit better den last time..vv happi..
den qi grace cass yun lin n mi went mama shop dere...den ate n laughed n drank....den cass bought a bun...candles...n a ligher..den dey sang happi b dae...haha...vvvvv touched thought : will i be able to celebrate it wif em next next yr?...or will next yr b the last?....vv scard..vv gandong...arh..dun cry!!...
5 more mins..thank you all/....for making mi feel sooooo good so special sooo loved sooo wonderful todae...tahnks...u all...rox..

2004-08-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

wooHooo i vvvv happi neh...feel sho loved mummi bought mi a nice nice quartz bracelet..papa book restaurant on sat..jiejie bought adidas bottle...wahahaaha..hmm...50 minsto go till my big dae..haha...nt gonna stay up la...happy in my heart enuff le..yay! got IC le..yay i hav a IDENTITY CARD!!!
i vv excited neh..wahahahaahaa...wo na li hui gandonged..realli hope tmr will b a nice dae ^-^ cheers~

2004-08-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

getting tired...life's complicated..
ppl sae things they dont't mean..promises hav become remarks..responsiblities r overlooked..sumtimes ppl tend to forget tt they live tis life once..only once.
maybe we shld learn to care for each other more..n b more mindful of wad we do n say...do wad we say...say wad u mean..sum ppl play..whole dae play...to sum dey r slackers..to mi dey r selfish..hav they thought of wad their parents wld feel if they get into trouble or score badly..hav dey thought abt their responsibilities n their future?

2004-08-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

think i'm slacking lyk shit lei..haiz...zen me ban?..i refuse to study da chem test..how?..tt blu n black bk disgustingly lack of colours..haiz...juz cut hair..dun lyk tt sorm guy..shall nt go storm animore...shall keep long hair...lalala...cuz he keep on saeing my hair too short..

2004-08-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

qi si wo le...i wrote 1 whole pg of long long blog den guess wad...bill gates closed his windows...den my comp dc liao...he vv bad de leh..so rich liao still dowanna improvise on his rusty windows..so many errors de...=(
lemmi sum up all tt i had painstakingly typed out juz now..haiz
tmr will b a vv bz dae haiz...sumore gt oral when my throat is nt feeling vv well now...but more worried for rach..she seems far worse..
anw so far gt 2 peeps wish mi happi b dae...yay! vv happi...thnx vic...haha..gan dongded neh...tme gg cut hair wif the stingy sky..hu onli wans to pay the cutting fee...haiz..shld b taking neo n watching the outsiders too..
yay! he dun lyktt ger le...o well doesnt mean tt i stand a chance..haiz...o well..its last on my piority list..o man..gtg buaiZz..c ya

2004-08-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

todae's nt a vv nice dae woR..haiz..failed lit by 0.5 mark..i surely neva study...haiZ wrong effort i suppose..for e maths..0.5 mark to an A1..haiz..na li hui zun?... angela sae i too sensitive...yea actually i knew all tis while tt i'm sensitive de mah.. but she shdn't sae sum things lor..haiz..n call mi to pretend she hasn't saed anything...put urself in other ppl's shoes ba..it IS hurting..
juz watched twins effect the first episode..vcd..at home..vv nice..haha..charlene n chen guan xi vv cute...he vv nice vampire leh..so cute sumore..wahaha..now my sis is sick n tired of my maid's cooking..so she's cooking her own dinner..hmm..gd oso la...i can shun bian eat.dun hav to go to grandma's hse..which i dread at times..dunno y lyk holidae liddat ...hmm....maybe coz i haven study my chinese test..shall go study tt ltr ... i aim for A1..but of coz tt cums wif a price..shall mug harder..
10 more daes.. haiz...under the materialistic presents..is it genuine sincerity?...all i wan is 2 b happy..at least on tt dae... feel loved n special tt sum1 at least remembers tt dae..but i think i'll b disappointed by sum ppl ba..haiz..shall nt concentrate on such ppl..lalala..gt my first pressie le..yea..frm huiying..thanks..
having a prequel of my bdae now..haha...tmr go concert by dunno dong li huo che n hu..den thurs go cut hair wif sky..yea his treat..wan watch twins effect2...muz b nice lor..haiz...so touching..juz now was reading darwin's theory of evolution. found their theory vv similar to the buddhism theory..(big bang too). tt theory believes in accumulated mutation among organisms resulting in an entirely diff organism. which goes against the bible..which saes "let there b water n dere was water same goes for light n stuff" more faith le..woohoo..
for sum ppl's info rite...i dun believe in a religion coz of family influence nor blind faith..muz see both sides of the story de mah..so far buddhism has proven to b the religion tt can agree with all scientific discoveries...we dun need to change our believes like sum religions do to suit themself to the facts.

2004-08-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

took NeO wif angeLa....quite nice la...except for wan..haha...i looking nowhere...

tmr kai shue le.....hmm..must try harder k...shihui jiayou k....dont slack le k...go tidy ur table n study sum bio k..no more comp after todae k... ...
after much consideration.....shihui saes "OK!"

2004-08-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

hipPie b Dae to SingApoRE...yay!!! sing shld hav more b daes...den more holidaes..haha..todae was hmm....unexpectedly sian la...
ate at home study sets...den go 2h gathering...at swensen..topid aloysius was trying to compete wif mi...on hu can not kop food longer...anw he's on a diet..when he's lyk not fat lor...anw i lost la..haha...ate sum curry rice...n heavenly delight..doesnt taste as nice as it sounds though..
den went arcade play the slippery disc on table thingy...fun ish fun budden doubles wif cass n chyr...injured my hand...dey both vv strong neh..
den dey go kallang stadium den i went HomE..yay!! slept den watch tv..n here i am..todae de time lyk pass so slowly hor? anw i tink tis twinkle twinkle lil' star thingy ish so cute..haha...dreams abt da night sky in Nepal...
" burie him six feet under...soon he will disaapear frm my heart"

2004-08-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

todae was...hmm...er...lemmi think..gREAt...early in da morning make potato for mummy..jie..wif cheese baccon n mayonise...rox lor...great sense of satisfaction...quite nice..den vv tired think bcuz i slept late...den drag myself to dhoby ghaut..was late by er...15 min liddat..dunno y..haha.didn mean to b late de mah..
denwent tanud's hse wif Xiu Xian..Rach..Val..GraCe to practice dance..his hse surely nt big lor..vv big can...gt 3 beds for himself..comics everywhwere..but neat..at least neater den erm..mi..den he bought $15 worth of junk food for us..2 sticks of cola...as if we r oinkoink lor...anw we managed to make 3x8 beats of dance..soon after..everyone was slacking..as in really doing our own business..read comics..use comp...i cld do neither of em..since i dun understand comics..i was doing basically uting..digging his bro's pokemon cards...eating cake...drinking
den we played dai dee...mi jx n shawn..i won twice!!! budden they won most la...haha..i can actually lose when i've gt 2 dees..haiz..
den when it was 6.30..we went plaza singapura...walk arnd for lyk dunno hw long..den XX was laughing lyk mad for sum unknown reasons..anw we ended up in yoshinoya...i ordered miso soup...den those guys ate alot...XX went buy drink from mos burger...
den we ended up in the neoprint shp basically bcuz of mi n XX..coz of the super 3sec shots..we were like AnYHOw "posing" in those "nice" pics....i admit it ended up UGLy la...haha..but at least memorable..
den went home wif XX n JX..sat on da floor..unil XX left..at bedok...den xuan call mi stand up...den i call mi sit down..hah..ended up sitting on proper seats..den he accompanied mi to pasir den went tamp home himself...while i was den accompanied by tt bus driver...

2004-08-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

y r there so many expectations...so many responsibilities...so many "must"s so many questions with no answers... i'm sooo tired...maybe onli the tears can understand..

2004-08-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

geog test....xc...all n all....failed attempts of perfection..
no one noes how tired i am...........

2004-07-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

wld it hav been better if i dont oways think so much..too much?.. haiz..i'm lyk oways so extreme...so veri happy so easily satisfies...den the next moment i'll b down...juz bcoz of sum ppl's words n actions...like charles in "king of the castle" ..i resort to self-pity..
jie saed y cry for ppl hu dont even care if u cry...y cry when dey laugh?..true.
i'm lyk forcing myself to the person i wan myself to b at times..be senstive towards others' feelings...not mine...dont let ppl worry abt u...think for others...dont care if it's appreciated...in general, dont care abt my own feelings..currently i'm vv senstive towards my personal feelings lor...n sumtimes nt sensitive enuff towards others' feelings..i noe it's wrong...ttz y i keep forcing myself to change....its hard ..its pain...coz i take ppl's words vv seriously...esp comments abt mi..tt bcums vv hirtful at times...海风术术术嘲笑我的爱

2004-07-25T16:21:00.000+08:00

stomach muscle still vv pain from doing sit-ups hiaz...zhen shi de...
now soing facial neh..haha...face cannot move..lips cannot move..all dried liao..haiz..feel like a zombie..it's those peel-off type..hope da effect is good...*smiles*
later gg tt farewell thingy haiz..catually gt k box de lor.. den 2 ppl cannot go..den cancelled..
actually can go wif sin hwee to the F.I.R thingy de..but just rehected her..haiz...nvm la..at least gt farewell..nt too borring
just tidied my book shelf now nice nice le...gonna go bathe .. liao..if nt yingqi sure scold mi...shraks...may b late man..buaiZzz

2004-07-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

S Club
Gettin' down tonight, a come on, yeah
Gettin' down tonight, uh huh, everybody
Get down tonight

S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna show you how (everybody get down tonight)
S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna take you high (shake your body from side to side)

Finally Friday night
Feelin' kinda good, lookin' alright
Gotta get movin', can't be late
Gotta get groovin', just can't wait (ho!)
Get the feeling (get the feeling)
Push the ceiling (push the ceiling)
Player hater (player hater)
Get ready everybody 'cos here we go!

S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna show you how (everybody get down tonight)
S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna take you high (shake your body from side to side)

O-oh O-oh! Throw your hands in the air
O-oh O-oh! Like you just don't care
O-oh O-oh! There's a party over here
O-oh O-oh! There's a party over there

Tina's doing her dance
Jon's looking for romance
Paul's getting down on the floor
While Hannah's screaming out for more (ooh hoo!)
Wanna see Bradley swing
Wanna see Rachel do her thing
Then we got Jo, she's got the flow
Get ready everybody 'cos here we go!

S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna show you how (everybody get down tonight)
S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna take you high (shake your body from side to side)

O-oh O-oh! Throw your hands in the air
O-oh O-oh! Like you just don't care
O-oh O-oh! There's a party over here
O-oh O-oh! There's a party over there
O-oh O-oh! Throw your hands in the air
O-oh O-oh! Like you just don't care
O-oh O-oh! There's a party over here
O-oh O-oh! There's a party over there

Ghetto boys, make some noise!
Hoochie mamas, show your nanas!

S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna show you how (everybody get down tonight)

S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna show you how (everybody get down tonight)
S Club (there ain't no party like an S Club party)
Gonna take you high (shake your body from side to side)
[Repeat to fade]

2004-07-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

I've neva fell so deep, never felt so crazy..
tell mi wad u're thinking...
whether it's good or bad, giv mi an ending..
dun let mi hang there waiting...
ur smile so fasinating...so deceving
ur eyes so lovely....
but they can't see mi...

2004-07-17T04:35:00.000+08:00

想你没有白天...没有黑夜
想你变成了呼吸
是没有抱握　还是没有复合你的要求
你的笑像梦.... 醒了就消失
但..这梦好美.....就让我永远睡下去吧
第一次我说爱你的时候, 呼吸难过..心不停的展动..
好想告诉你...我已经掉进了无地洞....好想告诉你我好爱你..问你怎么办..

2004-07-10T14:35:00.000+08:00

忽然? 毫??故再多的? 也不?足

想你的眉目想的迷糊不知不??我中毒

忽然? 很需要保? 假如世界一瞬??束

假如你退出我只是?假如

不是不明白太想看清楚反而?你的面目?得模糊

越在乎的人越小心安? 反而?一?吻也留不住

我也不想??? 反反覆覆反正最後每?人都孤?

你的甜蜜?成我的痛苦 ??你有?有?助

我也不想??? 起起伏伏反正每段??都是孤?

眼看感情?成一?包袱都怪我太渴望得到你的保?

by faye wong...wo ye bu xiang zhe yang...
vv guilty....todae sports dae den coz of mi (first runner)bcum 4th...4th liao lor..how to chiong? haiz...todae alot of things happen..actually its alot of thoughts in my mind la..
for sum ppl rite...i care so much i treasure so much..but in the end..i dun think she realli cares.. sumtimes la...no more concern..Memories r nuting to u, perharps bcoz u've categorised it under history...so maybe i shld't care so much?...i dunno...but i still hav the memories..

2004-07-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

sian diao...throat vv pain leh...lyk the 哑子吃黄梨,有苦说不清...haiz...juz now went training...vv sian de lor..tt coach call us to play 15 min by 15 min...den muz see according to tt paper...den diff ppl gt diff patterns...den vv hard to coordinate wif my partner...coz diff "jiao"..haiz...den xiao hua feeling unwell...everytime hit wrong direction..make mi sho sian sia...pick ball onli.. den i gt quite imaptient *apologies*..
den we figured the cheer 4 sports meet ..its nt lame at all de" 123 321 ping pang ping pang is the bez... 456 654 den dunno ping pang wad....on and on den 10 11 12 12 11 10 we can even kill the ants.." ahaha..-no link- den we hav tis decor on our faces de.. ( a plaster )...den gt ribbons on our habds neh..haha....blue i buy de...haha...

2004-07-06T17:24:00.000+08:00

was singing jay's "long quan" when i saw tis poor bird squashed in the middle of the road...it was gross...blood n bones n all..haiz...shall do the transfer of merits to it later..
vv peaceful now...listening to relaxing meditation sounds..unlike juz now...oral tt time..haiz...was vv jing zhang..almost cannot breathe...came out panting..haha..
i shall go read read my book den slp slp for a while..(hopefully) den go do h.w....still kan 4get tt bird....kan even see its head...muz hav flown off..as in bcoz of the impact..the driver should save it lor...wadz the hurry man..y muz drive so fast..maybe tt bird's leg injured mah...bless tt bird..

2004-07-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

lalala....parental problem solved man..my dad sms my mom...den i "help" her reply..all those sweet n mushy stuff...haha..den he vv happi..haha.. ltr gt tis show at chanel U..7 o'clock de...vv nice...gt a vv shuai guy...wif spects de...haha..he look vv alike mi camper...haha..huz vv cute too..hohoho..
todae slack hole dae at home...eat n slp..onli did a few questions...feel so useless man..
yz sae gt NDP ticket...call mi go watch..at first it was ok..as in ppl hao xin offer tickets rite..but i dowanna go..go dere see nathan for wad...den he was lyk dun care..c u dere..its lyk so childish n chauvanistic lor..hu cares man...nt gonna b dere..
k la...wanna go see my shuai shaui channel U guy liao..buaiZzz

2004-06-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

y is she so irritating?...vent out her frustrations on mi...
maybe its a common mistake all human make..selfishness, ignorance, haiz...sumtimes before we do or sae things we muz think lor..lack of patience n tolerance..if we cld just hav more thoughtfulness for everybody, think in their shoes. hear wad they hear..put down our self ego...selfishness...thinking of ourselves so much..too much..tis world wld b a much better one..for everyone.
Hav compassion..hav love for all sentient beings...when i tried wishing all beings well...thinking the best for others..i feel happy too..haha...can smile walking on the road...coz goodness shines..haha.
but sumtimes it's really tiring...like juz now..trying to get muself back from anger..when ppl so close to u..all arnd u discourage u of the things u do.." u do so much for wad...they will appreciate meh?"...is the most common question...it takes effort n strong perserverance to tell myself it is worth it..n double effort n a vv strong stand to "explain" to these ppl...they juz dun understand..it gets vv tiring n irritating sumtimes..n anger rises..like yesterdae...wanted to help her soak the clothes..den she for no reason anyhow scold mi...all tt beautiful thought torn into pieces..
my father too...told him nt to drink so much beer n unhealthy snacks...in the end..he gt angry at mi..thinking tt i'm disrespecting him...
my mom doesnt understand my dad's stand...he thinks tt she's picking on him...my dad doesnt understand my mom's moodswings...both r selfish...both hav strong egos..y kan they juz think for each other..keep on saeing " i neva do anything wrong wad"..defend themselves..coz when the problem cums out...the first thing they wanna do is to get the responsibility off.
ignorance...........he saes tt he faces alot of pressure at work.. she saes she also face alot of pressure at work..when my dad saed tt he was probably trying to let her understand of his pressure so tt she'll b nicer to her. but when tis sum into her ears...its becums- he's trying to compplain tt he has work pressure...i also hav wad...
haiz....den when i tried to tok to em ..since they dun even wanna tok to each other..nuting can go in....tt night i broke down...

2004-06-22T22:03:00.000+08:00

had a damn full lunch juz now...was nice...but made my stomach vvvvv pain...stuff dinner down...now super warm..muz lift up shirt..if not......_...i'll die..
todae had chem exam ...actually i hav no comments abt it de lor...dun noe if i did well...di badly...nt even neutral...why?..
I'm feeling damn suckish now...physically n mentally..I'm dirty n sweaty n warm n pain..----tt makes mi mentally bu shuang..haiz..
let's juz hope sum things can get better..why is human relations so complicated?...they actually think tt i'm those super quiet n shy type..haha...yea i am..infront of them...wad can i sae?...feel so unatural n awkward....don't feel my presence...so wad if i won all tt...so wad if i gave tt 100% effort..haiz..

2004-06-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

haiz...sigh.....sucks.....todae sucks..from the morning... mom forgot to wake mi up...woke up at 9.50 plus...when my tuition is suppose to b at 10 ...den when checking msg..saw dad's msg...Italy n denmark draw..sucks man...lost $10....neva gonna do tt again...den next came my tuition teacher...haiz...rushed dere liao..in the end was dere by 10.30...which i extended...todae was geometry...super hard lor..vv complicated...
tuition ended at 12.30..suppose to meet at 1.30..but i didn go check until i was dere waiting...waited for 1 hr...damn damn damn sian..walked arnd east pt mall for an hr...wif communication breakdowns wif angela...den i was damn impatient n unhappy liao...
our grp stayed at BK...nt noeing wad to do...haiz...k..anw tt was a time wasting part...[fast fwd]...den i stayed in angela's hse doing powerpt....while she n valerie go yoshinoya do interview....after tt here i am,..rotting infront of the comp while dey tok...damn sian..feel so damn extra here lor...dun like...i dun like....cease the hatred..having fever now..
sian...feel so forgotten in tis grp.....................

2004-06-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

what's wrong with the world, mama?
people livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world's addicted to the drama
only attracted to the things that'll bring the trama
overseas yeah, we tryin' to stop terrorism
but we still got terrorists here livin'
in the U.S.A, the big C.I.A
the bloods & the crips, and the KKK
but if you only have love for your own ways
then you only leave space to discriminate
and to discriminate only generates hate
and when you hate, then you're bound to get irate (yeah)
madness is what you demonstrate
and that's exactly how anger works and operates
man ya gotta have love, this'll set us straight
take control of your mind and meditate
let your soul gravitate, to the love ya'll

people killin', people dyin'
children hurt and ya hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach,
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father, help us
send some guidance from above
'cause people got me, got me questionin:
where is the love?
(love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(where is the love, the love, the love)

it just ain't the same
old ways have changed
new days are strange, is world insane?
if love and peace is so strong
why are there pieces of love that don't belong
nations droppin' bombs
chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
with ongoin sufferin', as the youth die young
so ask yourself, is the lovin' really gone
so I can ask myself, really, what is going wrong
with this world that we livin' in
(livin' in)
people keep on givin in
(givin in)
makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
(yeah)
not respectin' eachother, deny thy brother
a war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
the truth is kept secret, and swept under the rug
if you never know truth, then you never know love
where's the love ya'll? c'mon
(i don't know)
where's the truth ya'll? c'mon
(i don't know)
and where's the love ya'll?

people killin', people dyin'
children hurt and ya hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach,
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father, help us
send some guidance from above
'cause people got me, got me questionin:
where is the love?
(love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(where is the love, the love, the love)

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
(shoulder)
as I'm getting older, ya'll people gets colder
(colder)
most of us only care about money makin'
(monnkey makin')
selfishness got us followin the wrong direction
(wrong direction)
wrong information always shown by the media
(media)
negative images is the main criteria
(criteria)
infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
(bacteria)
kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
(cinema)

whatever happened to the values of humanity?
whatever happened to the fairness and equality
instead of spreading love we spreadin' animosity
lack of understandin' leading us away from unity
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin under
(under)
that's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin down
(down)
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin under
(under)
gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
(found)

people killin', people dyin'
children hurt and ya hear them cryin'
can you practice what you preach,
and would you turn the other cheek
father, father, father, help us
send some guidance from above
'cause people got me, got me questionin:
where is the love?
(love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(the love)
where is the love?
(where is the love, the love, the love)

2004-06-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

LeAnne Rimes..please remeber..tis song is for you...i wont forget...

Time, sometimes the time just slips away
And your left with yesterday, left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time, I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget the memories we made

* Please remember, please remember
I was there for you and you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine while we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me

Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time, I'll never know again

Please remember, please remember
I was there for you and you were there for me
And remember, Please remember me

[Repeat *]

And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this heart was yours and mine
And how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I knew that you had me

Please remember, please remember

2004-06-12T17:36:00.000+08:00

yesh~ shihui's back n refreshed frm ehi passiko ( SBMY's camp ..meaning "come n see") kk...there's sooo much too sae now.. a short 3 daes camp...made mi gain soo much..firstly leadership..though there were contrdicting times..like when i stay there n dun participate wif the campers (lyk all GLS do) den the seniors will b lyk u so sian den how the rest be enthu?.. den i run wif em.. den my partner will be lyk dun make a fool of urself la...GLs dun need to run...den wad am i suppose to do...i jia youded for em liao mah..den gt sumtimes i go help those facilitators mah...den when i do sumthing wrong they will be lyk stare ar me and sae dun b stupid lor...n walk away...*faints wif guilt
den gt sum irritating campers oso lor...call em make water bomb onli mah...den they sit dere take on hp...when i go tell tt person to do sumthing she became uper agitated n saed " wad la i juz finsh using my hp lor..not even 1 minute lor" haiz...den got sum ppl... giv mi chow bin ( black face)..dey muz undersatnd de mha....u wanna hav fun den u muz do work lor..
the next n last unhappy thingy tt happened....my partner..he gd lor...oways dissapperaing...leave the hole grp to mi.. i was lyk damn fed up lor...he sae he will go find substitude oso neva find...kaoz...vv stress lor..
kk next jiu shi all the happpiiii thingy thing things liao.. firstly our lovely grp [MUdiTA] won the best grp..wooHoo..secondly...shihui won the bez female GL...wooHoo.. *faints wif joy..tis kinda satisfaction is overwhelming de lor.. until now i still super happi..the joy contributing...like slping at 4am..haha...on the hard cold floor.. to lead is to serve.
the most memorable thing now.. my grp is one... another is my fellow organisers.. the fact tt mudita won is a miracle lor..coz we came in super sian...campers were so closed up to themselves.. i didn noe wad to do lor...besides encouraging em..
den 2 campers fall sick..one gt high fever.. one gt headache.. tt was vvvv bad...coz we were vv short of manpower coz my partner wasnt around too.. but still we did it...i'll oways rem camp ehi passiko 2004.. i'll oways rem our cheer.."where is the joy?" everyone of u... good or bad..i'll rem..
and tt night....the vv last night..i was vv tired but i didn wanna slp...sorta wanted time to stop dere.. went to the organisers bung where we all gathered.. mixed wig ppl frm other grps..we played we laughed.. haha...sky's hp.. dunno y...tis memory seem to b vv strong in my mind...not fading...frequenly remembering...oh ya...wanna thank sky for tt milo..neva drank anything nice for lyk 3 days... wanna thank zhi qiang n zenson for thexiang si dou..haha.. wanna thank jia qi for being the onli person working by my side (water bombs) for so long ..not giving up..wanna thank randall for his leadership..leading the grp to such great heights..wanna thank zekui for accompanying mi when i was afraid of being alone in the room..thogh she was sick..wanna thank victor for his enthusiasm..haha but perharps u shld thank mi for the bez camper prize..haha..wanna thank those who were present tt night..esp sky..haha..sorry abt ur phone man..wanna thank zeming for trsuting mi..putting mi as a GL..when i'm lyk so inexperienced n new..wanna thank eleanol for tt company...thank shixiong for ur effort as a facilitator to push us..without u we'll die lor..haha..thank everyone frm ehi passiko prequel 2004..hope to c u all in the december camp k..

2004-06-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

你要独处的时候我就是孤独
你在微笑的时候我就是幸福
亲爱的我的温柔你怎么记得住
从来没有在你面前哭

你去流浪的时候我也被放逐
你想说谎的时候我变成赌注
亲爱的我的温柔你怎么记得住
在你身边我像影子一样模糊

在你的世界里我一个人住
你认为甜蜜我觉得痛苦
你曾说过爱情应该是无条件的付出
哦到最后还是我一个人住
跟你的脚步我迷了路
我很难对自己交待清楚因为我在乎

2004-06-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

i hate the idiot good for nutting peeg hu invented sms..oways either cannot receive or cabnnot send..haiyo..main cause of communication breakdown..
todae is a BeaUtiFul dae man....i went sch at lyk 8am..only to find out tt chem tutorial is at 10am...well well..nvm..so i went mrs lam's class listen lor...kill time..she vv cute leh..vv interesting..learnt quite alot..oh ya..tok abt tt..i haven do my chem tutorial h.w..haiz..ltr go do..but i'm more interested in A maths haha..i shall finish A maths h.w first..haha..
anw..yest was vesak..hmm...first time spending it at SBM..to b honest (very honest) ..it WAS sian.. maybe coz i nt vv shou wif em la...den dun realli appreciate their lame jokes lor..haiz...den oways kenna outcasted..*sobx..haiz..if moommy n daddy n jiejie were in singapore den it'll be a totally diff case..haha..picture mi on the sofa watching TV...wif a nice cup of hot tea..shaking legs...toking wif my family..lolx
i went SBM den tend the stall for lyk 5 min den gt super sian...imagine u seat in a damn warm plcae...(outdoors) den no fan..den nobody to tok to...nutthing to do..juz looking into the space..waiting for mosquitoes).. went dere at lyk 12pm...stay until 7.30 liddat...if dey were more efficient durring the meetiing...it wont hav taken hours lor..haiz..
wel well...y am i sho happi todea?...maybee coz jiejie cum back for her camp" liao ba..den at leats i hav sum company..*yes!
her camp is lyk........not a camp lor...she eats SIX meals leh..imagine tt...sounds more lyk pig farming rite..
well well...tmr gt training..hmm..now i using 200% of seriousness in tt liao..hope tt tmr i'll get a better partner...if nt vv sian...den get scolded by lily (coach)..think tt dae a bit bu shaung coz of my injured leh la...den oso abit bu shaung lily liao lor...den he still scold mi infront of everyone..pt his finger at mi..den i breakdown lor...thinking back..its quite stupid to hav cried..so lose face...*burries myself
2 more daes b4 papa n mummy cum home safely from thai..yesh! miss mom n dad...haha...oso look fwd to the thingy thing thing they bought for us...yea!todae alot of gd news leh..i left 1 question den fisnish my revivision 2 liao neh..although may nt be vv gd la..but i'm now at the slack speed mah..
kk c ya little bloggy gtg play water liao..woohoo

2004-06-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

home alone for 3 daes...quite lonely la..ranined vv heavily yesterdae...make mi scared lyk wad.. i close all the windows liao still can hear the wind saeing WooOooWooOOo..so ghostly...but anw its over..yes!
haha..todaes's vesak dae..gonna burn some joss sticks before gg to SBM to help ou later.. feel tt i wont be tt lonely todae liao..yea..coz gonna stay dere until quite late..

2004-05-31T18:32:00.000+08:00

sumtimes i realli think tt life sux..i mean times when i kan be bothered to go deep into thoughts abt wadz right wadz wrong..the more i think..the deeper i feel..
now i live to do homework..to make mummy happi...to make myself seem happy..haiz..tis world is dominated by hypocrites.. am i expected to be one? when those ppl arnd mi are..haiz..its tirring thinking abt such ppl...such stuff...their motives...
am i suppose to laugh when i dun think anything is funny/..am i suppose to tok juz to entertain u...am i suppose to make u happy?..how den..can i feel happy..wif all tt crappy chem n academic stuff...where can they get mi to?..i'm doing it for a cert...for satisfaction..ttz all..i'm lifeless...
i thought i lived for love...but i dun seem to feel much of it now.. y muz ppl go round hurting one another...dumb ass.. dun dey noe its stupid...n it'll get em no where..
actually i duno y i'm so depressed now lor..depression?..tis yr..i sighed the most..i felt lk dying the most..i wondered the most things.. i forced myself nt to cry the most..i saed life suck for the first time in my life..i saed vulgarities like F*** wif the intention of saeing it the first time...wadz wrong?

2004-05-29T19:51:00.000+08:00

Jay...gui ji..anw congrats to juliana for winning..

怎??藏　我的悲?　失去?的地方
?的?香　散的匆忙　我已?跟不上

?上眼睛　?能看?　??去的痕?
在月光下　一直找?　那想念的身影

如果?分手　是苦痛的起?
那在??之前　我?意再?一遍
想要???的　不敢?的?
?不?有人可以明白

我??著呆　然後忘?你　接著???上眼
想著那一天　?有人代替　?我不再想念你
我??著呆　然後微微笑　接著???上眼
又想了一遍　??柔的?　在我忘?之前

心理的眼?　模糊了??　?已快看不?

2004-05-28T14:23:00.000+08:00

[{(numb})] dunno wad to feel ...maybe sorry?...dissapointed?..angry?...depressed..yea..depressed..my results rox lor..22 lor..rank is lyk 18 lor..how beautiful..
but who can i blame except myself..i deserve tis lor..."The fault is not in the stars, but in ourselves."
but i dissapoint my parents.. i play i eat i slp..i magnify the work done..n i minify the time slacked infront of em...
how can i motivate myself to pls pls wake up??..now i can hav the spirit to finsh all my hol hw and start my assesment..but 20 mins later i'll juz slack..how...pls tell mi how to overcome my laziness...
tis wont do lor..i'm nt smart and ttz y i kan affot to slack..i hav promises made n responsibilities on my back tt i muz realize..i shall try..i shall try n i shall try... i shall neva giv up until the dae i can happily show my mom the results wif pride..

2004-05-26T18:21:00.000+08:00

juz lost my 1.5km..got 5th..kailing overtook mi at the last few seconds..but nvm..it was expected..since i knew my opponents long b4 i played the game..but actually expected 4th de leh.. hmm..nvm still quite happy actually..haha...yea..coz gt frenz cheer fer mi..*grins... haha..
i prayed for it to rain den it did rain..so dun hav to play 4 x 400m relay yet..vv gd...cos we all nt on form except grace..BUT it was raining cats n dogs lor..den i bcame fully totally completely drenched.. den to keep myself warm i wear tt thing i won..tt radio 88.3 t-shirt...the size is lyk Large lor..den i wore it lyk a butch liddat..den whereeva i go ppl stare at mi as if i does kinda butch or les..esp when cass n grace were arnd..den tt stupid cass tried to act les wif mi...yuck..*shoos her away...oh ya..my poor new shoes gt wet too...den tmr cannot wear for walkaton liao..nvm..wear sch shoes lor..walk onli mah..
Yes!..tmr gt mass dance leh..yea..shuang..mass dance rox lor....so fun..even if i dun realli noe the whole dance..its fun..but i thinki spent too much time on doing stupid things..like using 3 hrs to learn the Atlantis Princess song of boA..i hav btr things to do lor..shi hui's a pig
o ya..toking abt sports dae rite..my juniors vv jia lat leh.. they all buay gum de...tis one sae another one backstab her...theother shouts back at her saeing tt she did nuthing...den they push the blame here n dere...from bedok to jurong..haha..no la..but it was quite a vehement argument la..haiz..moreover they r relay partners..blame each other for being slow.. haiz.. hu wld wan to b slow on the field lor..everybody wans the best wad..
i came home n used the comp until now...so i' currently feeling guilty.. k..so i shall go do my homework..c ya

2004-05-25T18:20:00.000+08:00

tmr gt sports meet...1.5km plus 4x4oom..siandified shi hui is sitting infront of the comp..typing rubbish..similar to wad i'm doing now..she's supose to b runninglyk a horse in the park now..but she's too lazy so she refuse to do tt n believes tt there's sumthing btr to do..howeva..from her academics, she learnt a lesson neva to slack,..so she's gonna go down n be horsified in a few moments...buaiZz

2004-05-25T18:14:00.000+08:00

shi hui flunged her academics...she's damn dissapointed in herself for now..however after doing a IQ test which saes tt she's suppose to b a precision processor gd in maths..she decides to neva giv up on herself..she promised herself nt to let shi hui down anymore..she las learnt her lesson..n she doesnt wan to make shihui cry over results anymore..so she's nt gonna giv up on any subject..instead she's gonna strive for the best...only the best..

2004-05-24T19:28:00.000+08:00

"u are the one suffering in silence not him..he cant feel ur heartache....he cant c how much u like him."...chiabong saed tt to mi..true..he can't feel a thing..maybe he doesnt even bother even if he noes..

by tai zheng xiao..

?你走後　?雨不停　?著雨?　夜夜醒到天明
眼角流出?言的?　唔...　是回?在胸口偷哭泣
痛?想?　慢慢看清　外表平?　是?你?自己
用微笑送你　?答?　把祝福?你　忘了??收留我的心

?你?了我和他而?豫　我不?只等待你做?定
如果任性　那?一次把你抱?　也?不?失去你

OH! OH! OH!　想你想得好孤寂　我想你想得好痛心
向天大?喊?你　恨我?出口的不到?的?分之一
到如今?能????

OH! OH! OH!　想你想得好孤寂　我想你想得好痛心
向著?方喊?你　深深?一?人根本不?苦苦?抑
一??疑　一生的悲?

nice song..lotsa ppl told mi i was dreaming..n tt its impossible..haiz..i noe he oso wans mi to forget..the whole world thinks its do-able..n tt i shld do it..only 1 way...forget..
its lyk i've been sentenced to a penalty of forgetting him..sucks...y do i yearn so much to see himeverydae every night...but when i do see him..i shun..away..far far away..maybe he's just a prince in my dream..n the rules r tt i'm nt suppose to b the princess..I'm unfit ba..probably..
dun even dare to look at him when i walk by..maybe i think onli the best r suppose to be in his life..den dun wan my presence to affect him in any way..y muz a person be so deeply affected by his emotions...how cum the brain cannot control the heart?...tis kinda pain..can't be healed wif medicine..can't be healed wif plaster...maybe time can heal it ba..as the saeing goes..time can heal all wounds..(supposedly)

放不开也看不见未来,难道这种不完美才是爱情真实的样子?

2004-05-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

listening to sleeping child by MLTr...calms my nerves..got vv impatient juz now..abt da camp thing..but nvm..its ok now.. juz now went to expo..went to giv out brouchures..quite fun la..coz alot of satisfaction when u see smiling faces when dey greet u back..den nod their heads vigorously saeing "okok..i'll go take a look" den asking all the details abt the vesak dae celebration thing so eagerly..woohoo...but vvvv tiring..walk arnd here n dere..den sum ppl giv u black face...dun bother u..well hu cares i've finish all my brochures n reached our target of 5000 anw..
now i'm all alone in my house ...sian hate tis kinda lonliness.. wld luv sum1 to be wif mi here..haiz...mummy cum home faster leh..anw i had an apple for dessert juz now wor...i had the whole fuji apple for me and myself..undescribly satisfying...the sweetness..the freshness..the crunch...awww...i can go shoot fuji apple commercial..haha..i'll show the ppl howapple rox..haha
anw...i badbadbad news is tt my idiotic keypad has passed away yesterdae..time of death:5.26pm.. after i played bounce continuously for lyk 1hr...pressing it lyk crazy..hoppng in my bed for the ball to jump across the "fire" thing...hate my fone la...nokia cheated my feelings *sob sob
bala is throwing all the words like darn damn n shit in my face..kaoz...fine $5000 lor..told her iao.she still litter..nvm...she's worried abt her a maths..sigh..she can delor...juz lack sum practice n luck perharps..
MLTR rox leh...y dey so good but ppl sae dey soso onli huh..maybe PPG is btr?..their voice super cute lor...bubbles..awww...if u free pls go dwnload PPG de love makes the world go round..n u'll see how cute bubbles is..anw..HAkuna MAtata...yea..its the philosophy so timon n pumba..rox..lion king is sooooo shuai lor...so cute when he was a cub den becum lion liao so shuai o man...i wanna marry him...den lala can learn how to roar from him..haha..
i'm so obsessed wif the happiness infront of mi now,,haha..forgt abt my sad results...dey were *sighs dissapointing la...chinese gt B3..i cried for tt...wad kinda shit is tt rite?.. eng gt B3 oso..haiz..chem F9..nvm..expected..planned too..den geog..C5...actually B de den pulled down by CA..den A maths tyco A1..E maths tyco A2...the rest dunno yet..but i think i kan hit my target of 14 liao..haiz..nvm..shihui jiayou..*roars!

2004-05-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

yest was piaing for my toopid chinese..haiz..now its gone n over..abit guilty tt i didn't study hard loh..cum home do my board onli..den template got prob..spent hrs doing it..haiz..nvm wadz over ish over but all my quotes gone ..haiz..
todae went eat at pastamania wif chyr, qi n nat, quite ex leh..9.90..saefood mania..den dissapoint mi..gimme 1 mussle onli..was expecting lyk 3.. but quite nice la..had my fill..den went movieing wif 2h 03 peeps..go see Troy..quite nice leh..but dey all sae nt nice after watching leh..Brad Pitt is shuai lor..vv muscular n charming i muz sae..* blows whistle..but he died leh..actually tis movie quite sadist la..all the gd ppl died..
den i went home..tom yam soup..make my ulcers swell up.. haiz..but its nice..had 2 bowls of it *burp..
den den den i suddenly got influenced bu bear bear into tis PPG craze while helping chyr find pressie for bear bear..so went i went home i was lyk frantically searching the net for PPG lyrics n news n games n pics...o man..they vv cute lor..sho cute..n sweet n nice..n angelic..little babies..awww..tok abt chyr..she n qi scared mi to death t toys'r us lor..dey both go take the rubbery fake reptile stuff scare mi..ycks lor..kan bear their sight..when the rubbery elastic skin tocjed mi i sceamed den vv tui lian lor..but kannot help mah..so er xin..
kk to add more stuff to seem tt i'm nt lazy n i often update mi blog..i shall tok abt my tmr schedule.after sch..i shall go arcade wif chyr if hav time..i wanna play the drum thingy thing thing..its vv fun de lor..i was lyk *nah when my fren intro to mi last time..wondering wadz so fun abt a few drums..BUT aftering playing once..i'm addicted..since den i go arcade juz for tt drum..rox lor..kk..den i shall go meet mummy den we go gaigai at TM..lian lou gan qing...den it'll be the end of the dae..short n sweet..how nice..hopefully tmr dun nid bring anything..i think i onli bring a small tinnie weenie "bag"..to put my pens n pencils..n water bottle..yea
kk i shall end my speech wif a song.. <> de..ending song..the most famous de ppg song..enjoy =P

Blossom, commander and the leader
Bubbles, she is the joy and the laughter
Buttercup, she's the toughest fighter
Powerpuffs save the day...
Fighting crime, trying to save the world
Here they come just in time, the Powerpuff Girls
Fighting crime, trying to save the world
Here they come just in time, the Powerpuff Girls
Powerpuff!

2004-05-12T13:10:00.000+08:00

lik is such a good bro..haiz..feel so guilty..i like oways make him angry liddat..haiz..all thanks to him tt my maths improved.. tmr got eng paper..hiaz...sian..vv sian now..totally emotionless..juz now at 85 pasar eating lunch wif em.. den one of em was indirectly irritating or ratheri was quite hurt by wad she did la.. y does she seem to dislike mi so much?..haiz..
i was indulging in self-pity..over my sianness..was listening to ah du's tian hei..chao sad..my amths rite..actually quite confident of getting an A1 de..den in the end they tok abt the ans..den found out gt sum mistakes lor.. those tt suppose to b correct...couldn't finsih the last qn properly..sadz la..even told lik tt i'm confident of an A1...ltr dissapoint him wif a B or C how..
been so tired coz of all these exams..feel like mud now.. tmr eng can relax abit ..haiz.. tues got HCl leh...its been dropping like wad lor..from 90 plus to 80 plus until now 60 plus..haiz..y liddat... muz get A for HCL leh..dun dissapoint mama..

2004-05-12T12:50:00.000+08:00

When I said go I never meant away
You ought to know the freaky games we play
could you forgive and learn how to forget
hear me as I'm calling out your name

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that you're lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

You and me
we shared a mystery
we were so close
like honey to the bee
And if you tell me how to make you understand
I'm minor in a major kinda way

Firefly come back to me
make the night as bright as day
I'll be looking out for you
tell me that you're lonely too
firefly come lead me on
follow you into the sun
that's the way it ought to be
firefly come back to me

Fly firefly through the sky
come and play with my desire
don't be long don't ask why
I can't wait another night

I actually listened to tis song 5 times.. not sian.. vv sad lor..tis song..haiz...sumthings i realli regret doing lor..wadz my problem...i rem i had tis fren vv close last time...she was vv nice to mi..den i was "playing hard to get" or maybe i think we too close liao..den i started to drift away from her..and she neva came back close to mi again..sorry...how stupid of mi..firefly come back to mi.. i'll be looking out for u..tell mi tt u're loenly too..
frenz who can share ur joy..dey're everywhere.. but how many r true frenz who can stay by ur side regardless of anything..and love u more den they luv themselves.. such true frenz n rare..one in a million..dey may not be able to light up ur dae (everydae) but dey'll be the ones arnd when u're down..but we dun see them until they're gone... *娴��ョ��蹇�锛� ��荤��蹇�锛� 浣��讳��涓�缇�濂界��蹇�*=-= i miss them..so many of my frenz... but how much do they miss mi in their hearts..?

2004-05-03T16:57:00.000+08:00

life is like a mirror..it reflects wadeva tt is shown to it..

actually everything tt happens in tis world is fair..if u're born handicapped, u muz hav done sumthing bad in ur past life.. but i still think its unfair..although there'a cause to everything tt happens..when we cum to tis life most of us will forget the memories of our past lifeso isnt it equals to an innocent person undergg punishment of wad he did last time which he might hav alreday forgotten... anw ttz outta the topic.. last time i use to think..shower the world wif luv and dey'll return u shit.. but actually no matter how rotten tis world is..everyone was born nice..so if love is showered upon sum1 or sumbody..he'll inevitably feel grateful and appreciative..n return u wif luv.. moreover..onli hatred can appease hatred..

2004-05-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

i'm struggling wif everything..even myself..everything's so hard...we learnt abt self-appreciation in one of the lessons.. when u get angry..itz b coz u care too much abt urself.. ttz wad i oways tell myself.. but sumtimes sumthings i realli wan to do...but dey dun giv mi any chance.. dey sae i'm too quiet..but do dey even noe y.. i cum into tis grp as a individual while all of em noe each other long enuff to b vv comfortable wif each other oready.. maybe dey ju dun noe hu i realli am.. but i realli dun wanna limit myself in tis circle..being a "helper" huz oways the one hu listen to the leader n do as he saes.. I can carry out the role of a helper definitely..but i've been constricted by myself..limiting only to these roles so long..when in my heart i hav so much to sae... I too hav my aspirations..I too wanna lead..i'm nt trying to be a cut above others here.. juz wanna be wad i think i can be...n wad i realli am..but no one has ever given mi a chance...sumtimes in a grp ..i do all the chores when everyone slacks dere..but when it cums to the "rewards" its neva mi..maybe i hav tis pt of view because i appreciate myself too much..i don't noe...but i feel realli uncomfortable..in tis grp...a tiger in a rabbit's skin...

2004-04-28T19:10:00.000+08:00

tis song beri nice...wad will i do by natalie burks..completely describes wad i wish to sae to him..hee..
I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to

I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you it will be so right

If you could see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side

Ohh ohh ohh
I'd be yours
You'd be mine
Ohh what will I do

2004-04-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

i need a new locker lor..but i'm quite broke..need to wait for my commision b4 i can even for the first time own my own personal private sweet little cutie pie *locker* o how nice wld tt b..dun havta climb up 3 storeys wif tt chunk of bks..nor climb dwn wif tt pile again after sch..i'll put my cushion inside after i get it..wif towel..facial foam n stuff..woohoo..shaung daoo~..no more climbing up lyk a labourer..juz finsh my nice little zuo wen...3 pgs..got sum crap la...but muz crap mah..peng lao shi wan long long...i vv toopid leh..found out 璁�� is 璁�� de 璁� and 璁�� de �� and dailect de langaunge is fang yan..i've been asking soo many ppl..for sho long..den finally mama n him told mi..*yes..tis week muz mug liao..no more enjoying of my dearst tv...*sobs..and comp..*sobs...haiz....i'll watch tv everydae after exmas..muz start saving for celebrations after exmas liao..

2004-04-26T18:51:00.000+08:00

since loo loo sae i vv long neva update liao..i shall write more to satisfy her..heehee..nowadays alot of things happen lor actually..small things ba..but all unhappy de mah..so dun wanna write..but now no more..��ㄨ��澶╂��..yea~..last semester did super badly lor..haiz..but now got abit of improvement *yes!..geog improved to C5..well used to b F9..chinese sadly deproved..eng is currently A1..a maths A1..chem dunno D or C.fang qi le lar..elit B3 bio A1..ttz abt all for academics...our class's geeting lotsa neg comments from the teachers esp from end lee..haiz..we realli kan rely on her..as her name suggests..she'll probably end our future..(shhh) she shld cum in to class one dae wif a smile..n stop her crap..which takes up moz of the lesson time..actually our class oso vv slack la..play here laugh dere..haiz..heck abt everything..class comm do anything without telling us..haiz..chiachia told the 2hers liao..so we'll probly do sumthing..at least call anne lee to smile..haha..

2004-04-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

i hav tis junior rite vv sadly from epps, i muz sae he suck.. to the core..he go roundthinking tt he's the king of the world...commenting on everything...kan stand him lor.. like everyone muz bow down to him..oh man..he's so childish n crude n rude n idiotic n irritating n stupid n vulgar n violent..y is he in table tennis?????....he should just go to jurong sec or sumthing....

2004-04-03T19:07:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i've last updated tis thing..[ neWs UpdaTe ] we lost RGS..0:5...lost cedars 0:5...hmm....den playing wif PLMGS on mondae lor..haiz...sad lor...at first thought maybe can get two pts from RGS den gt chance...anw i didn play...haiz..realli honestly don't like my partner lor...maybe we can play well together la..she's talented i muz sae...dun cum pract oso so good...but abit AP lor..practice oways bu ren zhen..so slack like bu shaung liddat...demoralise mi onli...haiz...sumtimes rather dun play..if muz play wif her...
today the new tutor cum.. she vv chio..but abit blur n slow..vv awkward at first..but she quite frenly n nice..she doesn even noe tt ahs exsist n asked mi y i dun go neighbouring sch coz it's nearer..haha..but geog tuition nt bad la...helps mi get a vv qucik concept on wad is teached n wad i muz noe...learnt hw to draw mind maps todae..
todae the new maid cum..she vv sincere n nice..vv tann n quite thin but by the time she goes back she sure will bcum vv chubby n fair de haha..slping wif her tonight..abit restricted n awkward la...hope things will b fine..
dae b4 yesterdae gt back chem test..sadly gt a 53 plus lor..haiz..studied leh..mayb i need tuition? but dowan waste money liao..haiz...maybecan find sum cheap tuition from sec 4s seniors?..but dey muz study for o levels..tok abt the dae b4 yesterdae..cass was playing a april fool's trick wif mi and did loads of stupid things..she shouted to jac saeing tt i wish him gd luck for his tournament..crap...n threatened to send a msh saeing tt i lyk zhenghao n i was vv sad all tt den crying..she real crappy lor..den all i cld do was to call zhiyong to *trick* cass...which he saed he gt no chance to..haiz...i zen ren shi bai..
anw todae went out wif val..was a chao sian dae...haha..dunno y leh..maybe we dun hav enuff common topic ba..realli hope i wont drift apart from table tennis gers..my mom saed one true fren is one who neva drifts apart from u...oways by ur side..n tt one is enuff...is sin hwee tt one? or maybe i shld find more...
haiz...now den realise sec 4 seniors actually vv nice...haiz...when u realise it its abt to go..can dey dun go...can time stop?...i lyk louisa jie yu n meiqi...think dey vv nice n staright ppl..nice to chat to..nice frenz...esp jieyu..vv unique character..she dun care abt wad ppl think abt her de...bag can use from pri 4 till now oso no grumbles..vv cute personality..meiqi oso vv cute..she sounds n look like nemo.. witha dowry memory..haha..louisa is vv direct n not prententious...fun oso..gt her serious times n *naughty times..haha..all in all dey're great ppl..haiZ..*sobx..

2004-03-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

we won new town sec..5:0..but i still think i did vv badly..which is the truth..i suck..got so nervous the moment i stepped into the place..was running a fever..throat dry..vv dry...cldn calm down...in the end we lost 1 match..luckily gt back another 2..i kan imagine wad will happen if we actually lost...from tis game..i'm vv sure tt i kan play for nanyang..haiz...hu call mi play until so lan..*sobs..but honestly i dun tink both our doubles will win..but we do hav a chance..i need to get over my nervousness b4 anybody esp coach can trust mi to play such a impt game..so for his decision i onli hav myself to blame...... real guilty..i trained hard achieved wad i wanted in normal practice..but when it cums to competition..i bcum a totally diff person..how can sumone play well with her hands shaking like earthquakes?.................i suck..

2004-03-24T18:44:00.000+08:00

todae gt competition aganist anderson..i didn't play..thought it was quite unfair ..coz i cld actually play..but my partner was nt on form..so i kan play...haiz...vv sad..tt doubles tt went down instaed of us won 3:1...which was nt gd coz anderson is suppose to b nt vv gd de..haiz..anw wadz over is over... doubles jiu shi zhe yang...actually quite glad tt i changed my doubles partner lor..tt ger oways block ppl de...hu pair hu herjiu block hu..den action vv big..now de partner much better liao.. but she nt on form todae sadly.. to add to my misery, my sis went to delete the msn messenger...to install the msn 6.1...in the end all the messenger services no matter which version..cannot be used lor..haiz...itchy hands..i tried dunno hw many times to install den cannot ..!!..vv peng ceik lor...she dun delete bu shi mei shi le lor...aiyo...bad dae

2004-03-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

cut short hair yesterdae..super short..like it..but hate myslef lazy bum..chao lan tuo lor..kaoz...haiz...pls la...shihui..stop slacking leh..i crash my L1R5..dunno hw to tell mummy leh...but realli hope to overcome my laziness n "que chang" in tests/exams..haiz..muz zhen zuo..i shall face the music n juz let mummy scold..since i am wrong..juz hope she dun gt realli super angry den bu li wo...next time...from tomorrow onwards..i shall watch tv onli at dinner time..slp at 11 zun zun...n go online twice weekly..

2004-03-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

yea~song of the dae...eternal flame by the bangles

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame

Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

vv nice n sweet song..i'm waiting..i believe..tt dae will cum maybe its nt time yet...all i hope is tt in my life i'll get the chance to meet a guy i lyk n hu lyks mi 2..we'll b the sweetest couple..the eternal flame..

2004-03-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

juz came back from camp..it juz rox completely...first dae:went in dere all soo quiet,little ppl contribute, all sian sian de..our instructor (samson!) was cheering n shouting, trying to bring up our spirits..but we still vv quiet.but managed to cum out wif a vv special n cute cheer..tu-tu! geger geger��楠��tu-tu train��.. ��㈣浇��samson��ュ��,��..��㈡病��tanud��㈡病��jaja..��楠��tu-tu train�� geger geger tu-tu..dae 2:sumhow..using his magic powers..samson managed to make us more enthu...much more enthu into our work..we cheered..nt onli for our grp but for grp 3 (the other grp made up of 3b ppl) , and all other grps..dere was tis terrifying expereince: a malay instructor went to steal or flag away while we were playing the activities coz samson nt dere so nobody look after e flag mah..den she"demand" us to return her her grp flag..haiz long story..den she scold us moron ..no sportsmanship...all tt..jeer us..den the gers cried..coz she stepped on our flag...den still wan us do 50 pushups each..den insult our team..*sobs...den we all stood up for our grp..tt was when i felt the deep sense of belonging in everyone's heart..den it was camp fire...vv shiok n nice...CCPwas the sexy frog..hahaz...our performance was vv nice..i did the chiwawa part...grp 3 had william hung (danson) he rox man..Dae 3: camp master yann announced tt we 3b won the bez class award..we cheered like crazy..the atmosphere..sense of belonging/...glory...was vv deeply engraved in my herat...was vv touched by tt achievement..shows tt we can do it..now tt we're back..i miss samson and yann..dey vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv nice lor...samson even cried...*sobz..this camp ROX!!...but lyk any other camps..we had our conflicts, unhappy times, pissed off times..but we juz hav to keep on forgiving..team spirit muz b burning at all times...esp the ohana spirit..afterall wadz the use of winning anything if we hadn't done it in a grp..

2004-03-09T18:38:00.000+08:00

And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
\'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won\'t leave me alone

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
've tried so hard to tell myself that you\'re gone
And though your still with me
I've been alone all along ...evanscence-my immortal..how sad..ttz hw strong n painful luv can be..haiz...like tt guy hu jumped to death for his gf..sec 3 onli lor..haiz...ttz y ppl shldn toy with each other's feelings..dere was tis lady hu gt crazy after being cheated of her body, money ($20000), love...it has been lyk 10 yrs liao..but she still cannot take it..crazy liao..haiz..aunt went missing..leaving a vv scary noteto us...lyk she wanna commit suicide liddat..vv worried for her..sumore tt night was raining..(she dissapeared tt night) dey made police report liao...until now still no news...may buddha bless her

2004-03-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

finally..fri..resting time...4 daes to val b dae...todea momz b dae...gave her a card...she vvhappi..plus a bouquet of flowers..plus a pair of shoes (she choose wan)..juz jow went galilee with cass..toked abt our class..haiz..realli nt bonded..everybody's heart wif their sec 2 classes...hope the camp can make us bond..dey shld seperate our clicks and let us miz wif other ppl..den can hav more interaction..den can bond..dey gave us the yr bk 2dae..the graduates all look so happi wif their class...hope tt our class can end up lyk em...but tt'll tyake extra effort...for 40 ppl to bond as a class..until the extent tt everyone thinks in the welfare of the whole class ppl...ohana means family, family means no one is forgotten or left behind..i cmpletely agree wif tt...afterall ttz wad a class for...=)..wah...realli tired..ao ye too many nights liao..gtg meet zhou gong le...

2004-03-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

great dae todae...GEOG TEST OVER!!!=)den i pulled up my emaths marks from 9 to 13...juz passed..was abt to cry when i gt 9 lor...den checked tt she marked wrongly..plus i begged her (mrs goh) to let mi pass...den she vv nice realli letmi pass...although still vv bad score...but well at least gt pass..moreover..geog test over..i've tried mi bez lor so hopefull can gt a B ba..todae after sch went KFC with valerie n angela..haha..we were vv krazy..we tried to "steal" val's chicken...den in the end we both bought our own...den angela dared mi to do gui lian to the KFC guy...den i do..n gt 4 doughnuts for nxt wk..choc flavoured with toppings sumore haha...juz now we 3 had a great chat..learnt more abt their beautiful personalities..nice chat lor...we stood in the middle of nowhere...chatted for lyk 30 mins...haha...dey both vv cute..val gt vv nice n feng fu body lang..angela gt vv unique way of laughing n drinking at the same time..can spit everywhere de..haiz..gtg bathe liao..sadz...buiaZzz

2004-02-28T17:40:00.000+08:00

yuppie duppie..juz finish 4 chaps of chinese..but still left chen yu..chem..emaths..n geog..haiz..hw to finish leh?? todae after bio den i whole dae stay at home ( when i'm suppose to go out) du tests...haiz..vv sian..read whole dae onli finsh 4 chap leh..but nvm at least i hav finshed it haha. yesterdae we go take throphy (silver)..our guys were vv sad..dey suppose to get better results den bronze de...but lost to CCHMS..hu stupidly lost to dunman sec...making the guys 3rd..todae tt bio est..crash liao..i studied hard lor..but 4got to study 10 yr series..which is a bigbigbig mistake..wrote the correct ans..but mi itchy hands go change n convince mi stupid brain which is easily influenced by my hands tt the ans it changed was correct..the result of having such stupid hands is losing 4 marks as seen from mi case..irritating leh..everytime liddat de..anw i gt 1 big discovery:the deep fried chicken wings/dumstick at sch dere de hawker centre de nasi lemak stall vvvvvv nice lor..althogh rice nt nice..but tt chicken vv xiang n crispy..OOoooOOshall buy more nxt time...mi onli bought ONE lor...AhS realli getting better..yea man..our o levels average gt 11.sumthing ..8 outta 10 gt distintion for maths...average bio grade 1.9 (arnd dere) ttz vvv gd lor..manz..mi so tui lian lor..haiz...onli gt a phathetic 15/25 for lit...minus one mark from 16 for no paragraphing sumore...haiz..liddat hw to go TJC??...anw camp cuming=)..excited...but papa will hav to pay fer it coz edusave used up..haiz..yea...can use mi slping bag finally..but kan find de cover to put it in leh...n mi mosquito repellent oso expire liao..dere suresure gt alot of wen zi de..heard dey bite ur lips when u dun cover ur face..terrible..todae is likang's b dae..so mi gift to him is no tuition haha..broke liao..jiejie n mummy's b dae cuming too...grace's xin chyr's yingqi's too..o man..great..y kan deir b dae hav a longer time in between so tt i hav time to save $$..?

2004-02-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

juz lost PLMGS..1-4...haiz..the pai zhen not gd...2 ppl hu neva pei b4 bcum doubles...anw i didn play...c gals...lost too..1-4..2nd yr ahs c gers fail to enter nationals..haiz..dey actually cld win..juz didn hav the faith n confidence n perharps sum "calmess"ba ..wadz over is over lor..hope dey can "zhen zuo qi lai" n learn from tis comp...listening to "chun zhen"..by mayday..shoo nice..so original..so sad...everytime listen liao will feel vv sad..think abt laz time frenz n classmates..n sum ppl..

2004-02-19T11:02:00.000+08:00

sick n tired~...y do sum ppl luv to compete shoo much..irritating..everything oso wanna bi....win jiu win lor..big deal..haiz..todae saw a bangladesh slping on the staircase in the mrt...curled up..he looksvv cold lor..haiz...y he no house n bed to slp wan? hw can ppl slp on the bed smiling when knowing tt dere's sumone slping on the cold hard floor shivering?...haiz..dey shoo poor thing lor cum here..away from family..den work shoo hard..in the end still shoo poor..todae dey had dis debate on whether death penalty shld be abolished...our team was the opposition team..den the class team did vv well..sae until we had nuting to sae...their pys were realli gd..except for sum stamering...think can win de lor..vv strong..esp shawn..he pro lor..vvvv good..fu le ta...in between the lessons mrs raj. didn cum so we were chating...chat until future careers...den dey were "finding" jobs 4 mi...so bad lor...sae mi tis cannot tt cannot...den sae mi bartender oso cannot..den i tried using cass's bottle to do sum "pattern"...but ended up picking up bottles all the time...den sae i do c ivil service can de...dey sae i too weak..so to prove em wrong..mi tried to carry yq.failed...nvm..arm wrestle wif the sickly yq..failed..xc.hu injured her hand.failed..cass..failed..haiz...nvm xi guan le..but i nt weak wad...still gt strength de..at teh en of the dae dere was tis chinese opera..dunno wad dey toking..but can c dey trained hard la..the jiao liu part was vv cute...jason ong..zhenghao dey all came out.."made" the sounds...haha..vv cute..dey chao brave lor..infront of hole sch leh..haiz..2dae c gals lost..0-5..haiz..dey shld b more united n diligent lor..nt like us(last yr)..so slack..fri jiu shi finals le...PLMGS..haiz..actually i gave shoo much encouragement rite...but in the end i'm not vv positive n confident of victory lor afterall dey R good..n mi performance for the laz competition sux lyk hell..haiz...den mi hand cannot stop shivering liddat where gt strength..haiz...letz hope for the bez..

2004-02-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

first post....vv tired now...abt 12 liao...gtg slp soon...2dae juz done emaths retest..taeching junior sci..chim lor..later she fail..den my fault..o no...better dun teach liao..den bcumb i zhuai..haiz...dad angry liao..wan mi so slp...k...muz go liao..tok tomoro...

2004-01-05T13:22:00.000+08:00

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2001-07-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

todae gt natfa...mi standing board jump *sighz* ...one of the lowest in class lor..its like 163 plus onli lor..haiz...when the others r lyk wad 200cm????!! *slaps myself...n die* sit-ups *sighz* 32 onli lor...though i stopeed 10 sec b4 lim saed stop haha...coz sian liao..todea saw him hahavv farnie doing tt dance thingy wahaha laugh until my teeth drop out..haha..vv cute lor..its like he's actions so big when its suppose to b small n graceful..haha den went galilee wif val for da first time...haha...i think the first time i stay dere for such a short time ba..anw it was quite enjoyable... though getting closer to val n lala, i've neva thought of drifting away from cass xin chyr ying qi n grace ( nt in sequence)...infact i kan like put them all in sequence...coz they are equally dear to mi lor..sumtimes its hard to strike a balance..hope i'll neva b forced to make a choice of piority for anyone..it'll b super hard..haiz..hope "they" can see my effort in keeping close wif em... n hope "they" noe they're equally impt..